Reading more Gay Romance or M/M Erotica books

I promise I won't bring in religion topic into this post but just to educate you, I believe in God. Second, I support same-sex relationships and marriages. Third, I do a lot of daydreaming I was born a dude and likes guys ... It would be fun if that comes true. Now back to the topic:

I'm the kind of person who has a flair interest with Gay Romance if not fetish. It feels like whenever a tendency like that occurs, the stakes or hardships are doubled and the result of certainty in love is greater. Being simply heterosexual in our time today has different approach. Most of us (I could tell) are mature enough to accept it, because what is there not to? Everyone is unique, as they popularly say. You may like baseball as much as I like football but that wouldn't change that we both are human beings, with feelings, with eyes, nose, and many more. Few of us (I respect them) are strongly agreed on their beliefs that they won't have it any other way. Hence, the issue I know will never cease or stop, so I won't tire myself on telling my opinion until needed.

Now you would wonder what is a straight girl loving on Gay stories? Like there is something wrong with it, but of course there is not but let me tell you I had my share on identity crisis. I myself was a lesbian on age 15. Not because of the media, not because I see people doing it, but because I started feeling a great attraction to girls. I kissed some, loved some, and even went on with a relationship. I do not regret anything but unfortunately one day I stopped infatuating myself with girls because guys pull harder on me. That doesn't mean I shunned my ability to find a woman attractive because I can assure you I have lust tendencies when I find a girl enough to make my underwear drop. Also that doesn't mean I neglected people who are heterosexual. If not a supporter, I understand them. Sure because I had an experience to be one, BUT THAT AIN'T THE POINT, LOVE.

I love this kind of stories because of the emotional and character depth the author deals with (also the sexual overtones). I mostly love the stories where a guy or girl is on the verge of confusion about their sexuality only to realize people could give a fuck and she/he won't care. The transition of one weak (or scared) individual to someone who has enough voice and guts to tell their real sexuality and leave it at that is flawless for me. It what makes people flawless, what makes this character from books such a epitome of what people should understand. Same goes to people who loves them, it paces the story not into something lovely but challenging and near to action. It's bad enough I am obsessed with books, but now I'm obsessed on books like Something Like Summer (which I promised to do a review on, but I was such in a emotional wreck after reading it, I don't think I can give it justice), Maybe with a Chance of Certainty and many more.

My fondness on this will never change, I think. Jesus, I even suggested (I did not force him, K.) to my boyfriend to start reading as well and of course he doesn't lie when he said "He likes it and finds it ... good." If you know what I mean. OK, OK. I'm stopping right there. I think I need to go and fish some more books.

Note: The making of this post may be or may not be done while watching gay porn. LOL

It's a immigrant thing on "College/Universities"

Many months has passed and thank god for Gandalf that I only understood now how to apply to some Undergraduate Application for Universities. Since landing on this blessed soil, my life has been officially restarted to a range of 100 staggering percent. No friends, a few relatives, and a totally clueless environment. Being the only sole 19-year old in a close community within Carson, California-so far I only knew how, when and why to ride a bus. How and where to buy food. Where and when to waste time. Why and where to spend dough and other things god knows what.

I have been left the task to pick myself up from whatever basket they left me in and go things from there. So the question? What things in my life did I need to rebuild or just leave it at that. One thing for sure, my weight isn't going away soon. (Pizza heaven everyone, do not judge.) Second thing is either I work or go to college. Do not get me wrong, I have no issues on working but I do have issues on WHERE do I work. OK, I can hear your gears working and saying, "Faye, it isn't about what job. It's about earning money." Well here's a upside for you: Do you think a girl like me with no medical experience or knowledge at all would pass as a Care Giver? ... Sure let me give you some minute to think about your answer. Go ahead. .... Have your answer? Well here's my argument: No. I would certainly not. Giving me a run around about a day on a medical facility wouldn't make me learn anything about where rightly to stab a syringe in a human's body. Cleaning? Sure? Medications? Nada. Let's not forget about what to do on emergencies or accidents! If you think I'd be the person who runs to a drowning body and do CPR, you are clearly mistaken. Sure I'd saved the guy from drowning ... but CPR? What? Do I just kiss? See where I'm going? I need education about it AND I AM SICK OF PEOPLE THINKING THAT I DO NOT NEED ONE.

Obviously, I'm no genius but neither a a genius or me would know what to do in a situation we do not have experience in. Believe me, I read a lot of books. I read about how assassins or serial killers do their thing, doesn't mean I'd be the next Jason Bourne.

Education isn't my first love. We have that love-hate and give-take relationship. You'll hear me complaining about school one day but I'd be complaining having not a school on the other. Saying so, my top priority is really finishing my goddamn course as a I.T. and majoring in Web Development. For the people who doesn't know? I left College at my 4th year but have I known how hard it is to apply to a college here in U.S.? I wouldn't have dared go here before I finish my studies. (Moment of silence regret and rolling eyes)

Past on the verge of rage ranting, I had a couple of times on feeding myself information about scholarships, admissions, etc. One of the downside here is really not knowing about how the education system works. And I have no one in my age to practically lay it down for me in simple steps or instructions. I haven't ever been in a scholarship, nor did I applied it. Back in the Philippines it's either you have money or not. So here I was clueless as ever and I don't even bother once I get frustrated. But frustrated no more! Thank god for the one who made University of Southern California website/blog which I understood what I had to do in one reading. I'm actually planning on getting on with the application but I had a tip that I had to at least wait a solid year before getting with my education in college. I don't know why but it was suppose to lay me off on some big bucks. So here I am just waiting for the time.

I honestly can't remember how I go through with school days, but now especially I am in a foreign ground: I'd bet I will be twice the loner I was. I'm actually not around to make friends but it would be nice to know at least one person in the school or one person each of my class, so that if I suddenly had to disappear, I can ask someone. Not that people are not approachable here, matter of fact, they are too approachable and open, it gets awkward for me. And hence the staying away from people. But that's not the issue right now, I'm just happy to at least know I can do applications now. I have plans on studying speaking Russian. LOL

"The Expats" Review

The Expats: A Novel by Chris Pavone
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

First thing, I would love to thank the Crown Publishers for this Advance Reader's Copy that I won through Goodreads. Without them I could have missed out on this amazing book.

"The Expats" as Chris Pavone's first novel shows such an exemplary reason why we suspense, thriller, or mystery book lovers: love what we read. The story held a pretty easy to-understand plot that was built in astonishing plotting of deception and lies.

A lot of other review claimed that this wasn't mysterious enough because of the time intervals between Kate's ignorance from the past 2 years up to the present but let me clarify you that it didn't not sacrificed any big revelation and shocking truth. The timing was perfect and it did not held back until the last few pages, believe you'd be clutching to it until the ending.

Chris Pavone's writing is undoubtedly amazing, giving him a credit to be a really good editor himself. His book held a lot of imagery that few writers cannot handle putting into words, given that a lot of scenes in the book jumps from places. Especially creating his characters, each let alone has a really unique strengths, wits and admiring weaknesses. It might not be action-packed but there is action, a adrenaline rush to the words that you'd be totally shock that came out of nowhere but successfully being let on with it.

Doing this book justice and respect, I am giving it a rightfully earned 5 stars. And the wish for more Chris' books in the future.

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BOOK BOUND - LITERALLY

This would be awkward but, Hi! I have been missing from blogspot for so long while here I thought I was going to be a loyalist to my dead-serious blog. Want to see where I share other things like Cats, Sex, and everything else? Go here. (Nice sidetrack) but hence, Here I am once again. Claiming all godly things to write something that makes sense and do sense.


First and foremost, I moved. Yes, I am no longer in the Philippines but I am now a official California Girl [insert song and awkwardly end]. It has been about 7-8 months that I stayed here. If I tell you it pretty easy here, I'd be obviously lying. Settling in was a bitch and so is finding a job. (And I won't talk about it because it'd be only sidetracked to my family issues). I have been doing different kinds of things from then on. I do not have school, so I literally have zero friends that isn't related to me in any way. And you all know that one of my hobbies is reading a book, and boy did that thing grew into a magnitude!


It all started with Goodreads, blame it sure but I wouldn't because it's particularly my life. If you have a lot of free time in your hands, it's in no way pretty and awesome. If you are like me, you'd be bored in the next 5 minutes. In the first few months, we didn't have a laptop or a internet in the apartment. Boy that was a killer. We spent our free time going to malls and such, then I saw the lovely haven of the Dollar Book Store. Jesus Christ, I felt like I was saved. I was quite a loyalist to Thriller, Suspense and Mystery novels: So I ended up buying a lot of John Grisham, Lisa Scottline, Heather Graham and many more. My reading habit from then on was in level 5. I had books to read between hours but it wasn't eating me ... yet.


After a couple, 3-4, months: We got a laptop! It was a hell party in the cramp apartment house and no later than 2 days we got a internet connection. OK, got the laptop and the internet. And what is a girl to do? Facebook? Sure, I'd be staring at that page for a full 10 minutes and I'm done. Tumblr? Sure, it ate a lot of my time back in high school and some time of my college years but not that much anymore. The laptop was there and it still seemed I didn't have anything to do. I downloaded games (L4D, Half Life, FATE, Sims 3, etc.) and still it gets pretty dull.


Let's talk about then how I started this BOOK BOUND craze. Everyone is particular going crazy about the *drumroll* Hunger Games. Yeah? yeah? You know I'm right. Dystopian books doesn't exist in my vocabulary then and I decided to try reading ... I discovered Goodreads in the middle of the craze for book readers and it lead me to ... 271 books ... with 91 to-read. It's pretty shruggable (Lol on the term) but I always and always torture, if not killing, myself into reading 10 books a week. Where the hell do I get those kind of numbers and books to read? Goodreads. I am now one reading machine. No kidding.


I always find the time to read from 8 am to maybe 4 pm with breaks in between and internet thrown in there, and my personal time of 8 pm to 12 am. No wonder I finish books a day and I cannot seem to stop now. I even made a goddamn schedule on this things! "Schedule", can you believe it? I can, that's for sure. I always have books 'on-the-ready' to be read and they keep compiling until I get a total of 10 or lesser to finish in a week. Sure it didn't start like that right away, but if you're thinking I spent a day here in California without reading a book since last 4 moths? You be kidding. I always, always, have something to read.


... Do you feel awkward yet? No? I bet it isn't that much of a creepy habit, I mean ... Psh! It's just books! With a lot of sexy males to drool over and sex scenes to imagine and .. and .. things to fantasize.
... Until next time!